The Big Day!

Well this is going to be quick, I have got to finish packing TONIGHT I load up tomorrow and move to Memphis on Friday!! AHHH So much to pack and so little time!!! If only I was moving in the Tardis… I could use the bigger on the inside feature!

Family…

 

This past week has been a pretty bad one for me when it started I was optimistic, but scared. Then I was worried, and then Random, and then upset and sad.

I still don’t know what is going on in the job world but that is another topic for another time.

my mother is moving out today. this makes me happy. it is not that I don’t love my mom, because I do, it is more that there are times when I just feel like I am her mom and not the other way around.

If anyone needs a little back-story into my mothers and mine relationship I had this letter to  her about a year ago.

 

She has not changed much from that time. She still talks to D*** even sends him nasty text messages… I know because she accidently sends them to me sometimes,  and now has a new boyfriend and she is moving herself and my baby sister into his house.

 

She was angry with me when I met the now boyfriend, she brought him into the apartment and he looked at me and then started going through my movies, and I felt all my anger rise out and “Did you know she is still married” spilled out before I could stop it. His face went kind of red and then he called for mom.

I just want to scream, she is teaching my sister all sorts of horrible things! For years I have been like a mother to Jujube and to my own mom. I paid the bills, when I had the money, and got it if we didn’t. I made the food, and bought the groceries and now I can’t do anything to fix this.

I am glad she is leaving and that makes me sad, this is my mom… I have seen people I read about on their blogs and friends whose relationships with their moms are things that I see in TV shows.. when mine is more out of a lifetime movie.. which I don’t even really like.

 

She still hasn’t finalized the divorce with my father, but it doesn’t matter to her.

When she ran into the Pastor’s Wife, she was furious because she was all gushing about how she was moving and  the new house this and Jeff that and the Pastor’s Wife flat out told her “you are living in sin, I don’t care about what you are so happy about”

 

I just don’t know what to do and if I say anything to her I might let everything out and then I would never talk to her.. which is sad because she IS my mother…

Grey Skys Are Gonna Clear Up....

Put on a happy face, Brush off the Clouds and Cheer Up! Put on a happy face!

So I have been humming and imagining Dick Van Dyke and Jason Alexander singing and trying to put me in a better mood all day..

Take off that gloomy mask of tragedy,It's not your style.You'll look so good that you'll be glad ya decided to smile!

Why am I so depressed that I feel the need to hum show tunes one might ask? Well remember how I was all hyped up about my new job and telling my old boss to take a long walk off a short bridge? might have been a TAD premature.

Pick out a pleasant outlook,Stick out that noble chin,

Not that I Don't LOVE LOVE LOVE my new job, but I just found out that the owner has not paid his taxes on the property, and that the bank may or may not shut us down tomorrow!! So I may not have a job tomorrow at all.

Wipe off that full-of-doubt look,Slap on a happy grin!And spread sunshine all over the place, just put on a happy face!

So now, not only am I stressing about the apartment and all of the things that were driving me crazy in my last post, I need to add, getting unemployment, finding a job, and paying for the apartment to that list!

And if you're feeling cross and bickerish don't sit and whine.Think of banana splits and licorice,And you'll feel fine!

So if anyone has an extra 300k sitting around... (OMG That's a lot of money!!!) Come save my job!

I am completely losing it and hopefully tomorrow I will come to work at night a realize that everything is fine... please please keep your fingers crossed for me ok?



I knew a girl so gloomy,She'd never laugh or sing, She wouldn't listen to me, Now she's a mean old thing! So spread sunshine all over the place, just Put on a happy face

Happy Monday!!!

I should be writing a paper for psych now, but I think I will wait an hour. (Manic Monday's are below the actually post.)

I was told the other day that Piper's husband ( they have only been married a little while) Will be shipped overseas as soon as he gets out of AIT. this is very sad news, Piper hasn't really seen him since they got married. He went to Basic the day after the wedding and when he finishes he will have one day with her that they will spend driving to Ft. Lennerwood MS. Then after his three months there they will have one day until he gets on the plane to go to where they are sending him for at least a year.

The good side of this is that Piper wants to move to TN with me when I go. I have been a little worried about moving and not knowing anyone. Believe it or not I can be a little shy when I don't know anyone. This that I will have a friend. Another upside is that Piper gets a housing allowance, and so we can get a really good apartment between her money and mine. Both of us will be attending school, I will be working too.

So I was looking at the apartments and realized that I have expensive taste! More on them later.



And Now its time for!!!

Manic Monday!!!

I am going to backdate a little here:

Manic Monday #160

Do you screen your phone calls?

Yes I do, but only if I don't recognize the number, I have the people who I call and who call me in my phonebook, If your name doesn't pop up I won't answer until I know who you are.

When was the last time you lost your temper?

I try really hard not to loose my temper, I think the last time was a fight with my mother.

When you're lost, do you ask for directions?

depends on how lost, I tend to drive a few more blocks after realizing I am lost and then ask for directions.