In Winter It’s A Marsh mellow World.

Christmas is one of my ABSOLUTE favorite times of year, I love everything from the music playing endlessly in the malls to the chill in the air when I leave work at 11pm, to the childish hope that maybe there will be snow when I look out my window in the morning.

But I wish sometimes I lived in the movies, the clothes the fact that everyone believes and is happy, I am a sappy romantic

well that and the fact that they all have killer clothes!

SO today’s post is actually going to be a littler longer than my posts have been normally.

So I would Normally be participating in MJ’s Friday Confessions but her blog has mysteriously vanished, and so I am skipping Confession this week although I might do it again next week.

I was also reading Blogs and I realized that something was happening that happened at this time last semester: During Exams I am not going to post as much apparently. It seems not only does nothing interesting happen to me, but I just get really out of it too. Hopefully It will take me less time to get back into the swing of things!

SO if you want a laugh swing by this post about the Spanish Inquisition and enjoy the madness that is my brain!

Just Remember No One Expects The Spanish Inquisition!!

Now I know it is a day late but I want to add my Two Cents to Mama Kat's Writer’s Workshop
2.) List 5 must have gifts you are purchasing for a loved one this Christmas.
3.) Open letter to Santa Claus.
4.) Describe how you would celebrate the holidays if it was totally up to you and money was not a factor.
5.) Book review time! What winter read has you snuggled in and turning pages?

2.) Airforce is getting TSO’s new Album Nightcastle.

Jujube is getting various Video Games to play on her new laptop that I gave her.

I have no clue what I am getting for my Parents

Kensei is getting Call Of Duty 4 and Halo 3 even though he probably already has them

Eri is getting the Cups we bought a Sakura together and she knows so I can write this here.

Amber will be getting random books most likely.

And everyone that wants one will be getting a Christmas Card, If you want one, either leave you email that I can contact you on, or you address because my comments must be approved I will not post any with address or people who request not to have their email’s shown.

3.)

Dear Santa:

While I would like to start this off with the general world peace and everyone to be happy and healthy I know that is not in your area so (Big guy if you are reading this over Santa’s shoulder that first bits for you)

What I want is actually very simple:

Bookshelves that I can move- I will be moving AGAIN soon and I want shelves to take with me please.

Car?? I know that one is a bit expensive but if you could drop one off in the parking lot I would be extremely pleased.

To keep in touch with all of my friends even after the move because I will miss them all entirely too much.

Love

Angel

4 and 5 will be answered in separate posts at a later date because well they will take a while!

Have a Wonderful Weekend!!!

Writer’s Workshop

Hi! It has been a while since the last time I participated in Mama Kat’s Writer’s workshop, so this week the ever curious Mama Kat wants to know::

10 reasons why you can't sleep at night

why I can’t sleep…. hmmm

 

lets do this Late Night Style and reverse order it:

 

10: on night's like tonight I am at work

9: because I am currently sleeping on a mattress on the floor… not to comfortable

8: because the train comes at 12, 2, and 4 every night and my window thinks it’s open

7. because I obsess over everything

6: If I don’t watch the Infomercials who will?

5:I have to wait for Kensei to get tired

4: sleeping is highly overrated

3: practicing for when I have a kid

2: Christmas is coming and I have to move so I am wondering where the money will miraculously appear from

and the number one reason I can’t sleep at night is…

 

1: I ran out of Lavender Fabreeze and so I now realize that my room doesn’t smell to great… nor do I have the relaxing sent of lavender to calm me.

 

Head on over to Mama Kat’s and see who else can’t sleep, along with her other wonderful prompts!

Writer’s Workshop: Top Ten and Then Some…

Okay guys I want to apologize for that very depressing RTT and move on to Mama Kat’s Workshop: Also I have my new laptop so I am writing this in Windows Live writer and not sure how the formatting will come out so if it is funky let me know okay?

I took two prompts today, The top ten things I would rather be doing that David Letterman are as follows:

10. Laundry

9. cleaning the house from top to bottom, as if my grandmother was arriving any moment

8. worrying about Kensei being sick and Piper who has just discovered she is allergic to gluten and dairy. (for those gluten free families any recommendations for good recipe sites?)

7. looking into the mirror

6. writing the eight papers i have been pushing off

5. being dragged up in front of random people to sing

4. three of those people being the judges from American Idol

3. going to the hospital

2. go back under the surgeons knife

and the number one thing I would rather do than have sex with David letterman?

having a non-anesthetized root canal

When I look in the mirror...

I don’t like what I see… I have a lot of things I want to change about myself and a lot of insecurities, I have hung out with the pretty people all my life, in fact i even do so through their blogs, but i have never considered myself to be one of them.

my grandmother on my fathers side has been comparing me to my cousin from my birth. apparently until around age 8 we were identical, then she stopped eating and i didn’t, she went on to model, and sing and was in a band, and now she is a stewardess on a plane.

I have heard you used to look so alike what happened more times than i can count and it has done a number on me.

I think what i want when i look in the mirror is to be happy with myself, at least a little, because then i will be able to start work on some of my other issues.

Blogworld Loves me!! (well at least one person!)

I just won an award!!! I am super happy about it. I am one of those people who never wins things so I am absolutely flabbergasted (I LOVE that word) That Raven over at Superhero Extraordinaire (go read her posts they are hilarious and I also love her banner!!) thinks I rock enough to give me this!

Okay are you back from the awesomeness that is Raven??

I Won:
Which is the Kreativ Blogger award given to those who are smart and cute and witty and funny and well creative, (and desperate for attention) (that last one is just me) lol.

SO what I am supposed to do is be excited about winning and then pass it along to 7 people who are all of the above and more, and then share 7 things that peoples don't know about me....

So because the suspense is killing me after a long deliberation I have decided who I shall pass this magnificent award along to, (also had to check and make sure they hadn't already received it because well I can't be the only one to think they rock!)

In no particular order of significance:

1. Ashley's Closet,
2. Keely of The UnMom
3. Mama Kat Of Mama's Losin' It
4. Texan Mama of Who Put Me In Charge Of These People
5. Frogs In My Formula
6. Rena
7.Captain Dumbass @ Us and Them

Okay so those are seven of the people who make we snort my chocolate milk daily, Now its time for seven things you don't know about me:


1. Angel is my nickname, Kensei gave it to me when we first met, while he was dating my friend Meg. She was all everyone has a nickname except Jacquie (which is short for Jacqueline and pronounced Jackie) (And I did have one but I wasn't called it at school just work, I had already been christened Bunny) and he got this thoughtful look on his face and started spitting out all these HORRID nicknames and meg was laughing and making comments about me being to much of a goody two shoes, and he got to Angel and it stuck.

2. I Despise with a passion, all things that look like, are or could possibly be spiders. I cannot even look at pictures without shuddering and nightmares. My father loves to joke that there are 300 kinds of poisonous spiders in the world and 280 of them live in SC. He will also be driving and throw fake spiders at me around Halloween... I hate spiders...

3. I am Italian, French Canadian and the rest of Europe. I am a mutt and proud of it, although I do lean a little bit more to the Italian side in looks and food choice.

4. I have no spine, I have all sorts of witty remarks I would love to say to people who make me mad, or just bug me but I am always worried about hurt feelings so I never say them.

5. Piper says I have a horrible temper, she says I am the worst combination possible and REALLY Big Bomb with a REALLY long fuse and when it explodes you get hit with everything that bothered me for the past few years.

6. I love to read, I read all sorts of trashy romance novels, although especially now that it is close to Halloween all of them have a paranormal slant to them.

7. I have only told three of my RL friends about this blog and only one has ever visited, its part of that offending people thing, I worry about hurting people's feelings.

Okay 7 things about me! If you have any other questions you want answered leave them in the comments and I will answer them!

Wonderful Idea

I saw a commercial for this the other day and then Shannon posted this and It reminded me of Mama Kat's Vlog. And now I will be doing this as well for Jujube's lunch.

Lunchable's has a new program going if you promise to leave a lunch note then they will feed a child in need. That seems like a great idea to me!

The lunchable's web site has some great idea's and they have down-loadable notes, or you can click on Mama Kat's vlog and see how she made the CUTEST ones! Shannon will also be posting some of the cutest she gets! Lets try to get as many people signed up so that kids can be fed okay?

Writer's Workshop, my best friend

Today Mama Kat’s prompt I chose was how did you meet your best friend? This one is actually really simple so I am going to embellish slightly along the lines of “when I was your age I walked too school, barefoot in the snow and up hill both ways!” But not to much.

As some of you have figured out Piper is my best friend. We are sister’s of the heart and we used to do everything together, (except for the brief period where she replaced me with the evil one and I can say that now, because she doesn’t have internet at her new house, so she’ll never read this and get mad, but she did! She totally replaced me with this evil chick!) (But she made it better by realizing the girl was evil and deciding to call me and we were best friends again)

I met Piper my sophomore year of high school, I was actually a shy and rather quiet kid, I preferred to read my romance novels and hide in the back of the room than hang with the more popular kids. Piper and I had a mutual friend and he thought that we would hit it off. So he forced us into a corner and made us talk, I had realized that she had a book that I had read and I had to comment on it. We began to talk and we never stopped.

We realized that we had both dated the same guy with in a month of each other and we even lived together briefly, we had huge plans about building a perfect house for us, and then she went and chopped off all her hair and got married.

We have realized since she moved away that things suck with out a best friend, she has to go to the laundry mat and says she hates that I am not there to sit and talk to her, and then there is the fact that I don’t really have a friend to wake up at two in the morning to come to work with me.

I miss my best friend….

Make sure you stop by Mama Kat’s and visit some of the other Writer’s Workshops.

Writer's Workshop: Tales From The ER

Well this is late and I am sorry Mama Kat because well it is really late but this is my story for your workshop today.

4.) List ten things you would say to ten different people in your life...if you had the hutzpah

and

Your trip to the ER...spill it.

First top ten things I will not put names here because well, that's just not nice.

1. Why are you still talking to him?? He scammed you out of $2,000 what does it take to learn a lesson?

2. Yes you are being a b**ch

3. I am your friend and as your friend I need you to leave now, so I can stay your friend.

4. Why did you marry him? he treats you like crud.

5. I think we need to talk...

6. if you run away and don't tell anyone where you are going one more time so help me....

7. church, church, church if you are such a church loving person why are you sleeping with three other people and why do you try to fore your ideals on me??

8. all that drinking is going to kill you one day.

9. Yes you smell like smoke, if you smoke a half of a pack in an enclosed area you will!

10. I am not your mother, so stop making me act like it!

Okay now that that is out of my system the ER trip.... this one might actually have to be in parts because well its a long story.

I was 18, I turned 18 the week before, I was working as a waitress at a deli for crappy money and even crappy tips, because people think that deli''s pay you more. They don't.

I had just gotten an assistant manager position at Ultra Tan, they were building one near me, I was supposed to start a week after I came back from my two week vacation to Myrtle each with my family. I was about to quit the restaurant. (see I was doing a lot of stuff)

When Prue and Piper called to ask if I wanted to go to Skyline, (I finally got to go this year!) I had always been to young to go before, so they would drop me off and go and tell me what a fun time I missed the next day.

I was ecstatic! I was going to Skyline! I told my parents I couldn't go to Choir practice because I was going out, but I knew my part and would sing on Sunday. I rushed into the bathroom to get ready as soon as they were out of the door.

Here's where the dramatic part comes in, We had the AC unit installed the week before, they installed it upside down or backward or something along those lines, the water was supposed to drain only the drain was running uphill and instead it leaked through the vent onto the tile in the bathroom. Airforce had tried to make the bathroom smell good by spraying Endust into it before they left, which kinda creaked a slick surface, I slid and flew and slammed my head on the back of the tub, knocking myself out for a few moments.

This would have been normal for me (I actually visited the ER a lot as a child I was very klutzy) but when I came to I wasn't in pain, I sat there for a few and took an inventory, neck okay, slight headache, arms and wrists fine, legs.... wow that one doesn't look right... lets move it and fix it... OWWW OWWW OWWWW NOT GOOD!!! Yes that was my though process. I should have called 911 I know. But I called Piper and Prue. they had already left so I called Cowboy Prue's then husband. He said he would try to get them. Then I called my parents ( I had my cell in my pants pocket thank god) they didn't answer so i called Kensei who was in TN, he called every Baptist Church he could find online until he got the one they were at and told them to come home.

When They got home my dad was positive I had sprained my ankle and told me to stand on it, while he was helping me up the agony shooting though me caused me to finally yell "Someone call freaking 911 already!!"

So they did.

The fire department came and then the ambulance and the ER guy with the most beautiful blue eyes I ever saw... could have been the pain... the collard and boarded me and off we went, but things actually got worse from there....

And this is becoming longer than I thought so I think that I will post the rest tomorrow!!

Writer's Workshop: Paranoid? Who's paranoid??

It's time for the wonderful, the amazing, the beautiful, generous, all around perfect Mama Kat's writer's workshop.

Before I get into the prompts I wanted to let you all know that Piper and I have made our first post on Because I said So.. So if you are feeling a little wanderlust wander on over there and read all about how we rock and horror movies that try to kill me.

Okay now that that is out of the way I was reading Mama Kat's prompts and well they were a little too serious for me this week, all of my posts lately have been a serious twist and I need a little funny. So I am writing three of them:

2.) When I grow up I want to be like...

This was a little hard for me because I am not sure who I want to be when I grow up. I am not even sure WHAT I want to be when I grow up

I know that I want to be feisty and fiery like Catherine Zeta Jones in Zorro's one and two.




I also never want to lose my romantic side. I want to always believe in love like Meg Ryan in Sleepless in Seattle, I want to be willing to give up everything like Kate and Leopold and French Kiss and I want to keep my sense of humor and love of books like You've Got Mail.































There are so many characteristics that I want but am not sure of yet. This I will revisit later



4.) List 5 things you like to do while camping...or 5 places you'd like to go.
I don't really do the outdoors so here are five places I want to go! In pictures none the less:

I want to go to Scotland:
Particularly The highlands I have read so much about them that I really want to just visit if only once.
I also want to go to Japan, this would be mostly for shopping I love everything Japanese and going there would be a dream come true.
I also would love to go to Venice The city of magic and water. I love Italy, Sicily and Greece because my Nana was born there I want to visit more than anything.
Rome for the same reason as Venice my Papa was born there
And I want to go back to NYC I love the city and I miss it. I lived there for a while and well I am I not sure I'd live there again I'd LOVE LOVE LOVE to visit.


This is turning out to be a rather picture heavy post...


The next prompt.

What Am I Paranoid About??

Everything!! I am one of those obsessive people who worry themselves into early graves. I am Paranoid about anything happening to Jujube, I make her call me all the time.
I am Paranoid about classes I tend to psych myself out before tests.
I am Paranoid about all sorts of things. While I am optimistic by nature I am also the girl who will jump right to the worst possible conclusions. I didn't hear from Prue for a week once after she made an odd comment to me, She had told me that she wouldn't be home for a while. I didn't hear from her for a week by the time she called I was picturing her and my niece in a car accident with twisted metal and bloody bodies. There was one time where Jujube wasn't home and I went right to someone had kidnapped her. I like to be sunny but with everything out there I do jump right to the bad I am sad to admit.


Okay one last thing and I will let you go, Poor Jujube had a problem last night she was bending down to hang up a towel and slammed her head onto the door hinge, there is a slightly deep halfmoon in her forehead now. I am not sure what to make of it. Also I am slightly annoyed with Herbal Essences right now. With my Paranoid worrying I get a lot of grey hair so I have been coloring my hair from the end of high school. I wanted to go natural and bought two boxes of ASH BROWN and when I finished my hair was JET BLACK!!!! I must have picked the only two boxes of black masquerading as brown. It doesn't look to bad but it is a shock. I will get Piper to post a picture later.

Poor Jujube's head after the band-aid went on. Don't you just feel sorry for her?

Books, and Blogs and Money Oh My!

I love Thursdays! Make sure you visit Mama Kat's for more creativeness!



1.) Grab your current read. Let the book fall open to a random page and share two “teaser” sentences from that page, somewhere between lines 7 and 12.
(inspired by Heather)

This was a little hard because I am in the middle of about six books right now, but Here is one of them

Night's Pleasure
Amanda Ashley

"he had an almost overpowering urge to release the beast within him. It would be so easy. He could take them all before they realized what was happening..."


4.)Tell us about your blogline...how long have you been blogging, when did you start, what were/are your goals for your blog, etc.
(inspired by Corn)

Well I haven't been blogging long. I just started this January. Originally this was going to be a kind of diary, but then I discovered all the amazing people in blogland and have been having fun reading their fantablous lives and realized mine was kind of dull. I guess I want to become more confident in what I am writing and putting out there. I am sure things are more interesting to others than they seem to me. I also love the chance to add the creative part of me. So hopefully I will write more and have a lot more fun on this blog.

Writer's Workshop and randomness

Hello all! First things first I just wanted to say I AM Super amazingly ecstatically happy right now. I have been worring about my math grade all semester and I somehow managed to get an A. I don't know if it was because he decided to give everyone an A (Because every person I've asked so far has one) Or maybe I am just smarter than I look, but that is my happy for this week.

Now on to Mama Kat's wonderful writing prompt.


Do I want a baby?

Wow, this question opens up a can o' worms for sure. I would like nothing more than to have a child, in fact when my friends began to have them I considered knocking a few of the off because I would get the kids if something happened. (Just kidding) But I really do want a baby more than almost anything.

This topic is one of the few that Kensei and I actually will full out argue about. Kensei is very planning and doesn't want a kid, or to get married or finish his school until we can "Afford" it. While I am in debt up to my ears with student loans, still accumulating, would get married tomorrow if he asked and want to have babies as soon as possible.

One of the reasons I am so desperate to at least try is because of PCOS, I was diagnosed with it when I was sixteen. My OBGYN at the time informed me that there was nothing they could do, and that I basicly had until I was 25 to have my kids or it would be almost impossible. For a sixteen year old who always wanted to be a mom that was pretty much the worst thing they could have told me. Since then I have learned that there was a medication they could have put me on that would have slowed the progression down a little, and I am now on it, but I have a very loud biological clock ticking.

I hope to soon have at least the beginning of a family and am also completly for adoption, but that is where Kensei's we need the money first outlook will really come in.

This post is going to be shorter than normal just because I am beginng to make myself sad.

Writer's Workshop

Mama Kat has come out of her illness for a few moments to post her amazing prompts for this week! Hopefully she feels better soon!!

It took me a while to decide which one i was going to write about. But I decided that I would do is number five.

I am currently fascinated with so many things! I love watching Psych, and Anime. I have been watching a lot of TV shows from Netflix. It is a nice thing to have.

I am also Fascinated with Disney Weddings and Fairy tale weddings I want one, even though I know that i will never be able to afford it.

I also like the Twilight series but not so much the movie and I know I will get a LOT of static about this but I don't like the casting they did for Edward, I had him pictured COMPLETELY different.

Movies and Lack of Sleep

Well I am currently on the downward spiral of my work shift and then I have two whole nights off Yeah me! I just finished Watching "Forgetting Sarah Marshall" It was a very cute movie I would definitely recommend it to people, but not under 16 there are a lot of adult themes.

I can't wait until Tomorrow, not only do I get to do Thursday 13, BUT Mama Kat came out of her illness with some wonderful prompts! SO I am looking forward to it as well. Hopefully she will be well soon!

I was bored tonight and when I couldn't sleep earlier I watched the wedding channel, for those that don't know it is a Time Warner channel dedicated to wedding shows, I get bored and watch Food, Style, Anything that has a something Channel. It amuses me. But I enjoyed a show about Disney Fairy Tale Weddings, While I would LOVE to have one, I don't think I can come up with 35k plus for my wedding and I doubt that Kensei will agree to a wedding in Disney World.

Kensei and I had a talk about jobs again today. He was telling me about his friend in Basic, I have been wavering between whether I want him in the military or not for a while, When I was in high school I definitely did not, but now especially with the economy they way it is the military looks to be the best job. But Its a moot point because he won't join. He doesn't think he will do well and therefore refuses to consider it. I will need a new job when I move up there, because well, going to need to make money to pay rent.

His Father offered to sign the house over to us when we get married. But, I don't want to live there with his dad until we do, I have seen a lot of friends fall into that trap. None of them enjoy it.

I got a warrant yesterday... Funny story. When my mother moved out to live with her boyfriend two years ago she canceled our insurance policy on our cars, In SC you have to have car insurance. My dad and I did not know this until he went to renew our tags 8 months after, by then we had over $1,000 in fees on each car to pay before we could renew the tags. I didn't know this and ended up in front of a police officer one night on my way home from work. He pulled me over for the tags and wrote me a $200 ticket. My dad said he would take care of it and I forgot about it. Apparently he never paid it because the friendly Deputy was waiting when I got home from class to give me a letter.

I am paying it tomorrow (Thank God I got paid today) but still not a good surprise!

I hope everyone has a great Wednesday! See you all tomorrow.

Writer's Workshop!

Every Week Mama Kat gives us wonderful prompts to make us think and keep the creative juices flowing this week mine is:

3.) The one that got away....spill it.


Well, The one that go away, If I see him in my memory its kind of like he almost sparkles, (Think the Vampires in the movie Twilight only less glittery)

He had Big baby blue eyes, and sandy brown hair, and charm that almost oozed off of him. No one was really sure why he was so irresistible to us girls but he was. I met him at the Cracker Barrel, when my mother and I were night fighting we would skip church on Sunday and go for breakfast, he was the busboy. I was fourteen he was seventeen, I would turn bright red and gulp my coke down as I watched him out of the corner of my eye. He would smile and flirt a little, the little blond waitress was always angry when we came in. I asked a friend that worked there to give him my number in a bit of a panicked state once. I

never thought he would call. I wasn't (In my opinion) the cutest girl in the world. He called, I was breathless as I waited to see what he would say he asked me to the movies and dinner. My parents dropped me off. We walked next door to the Pizza hut and had pizza, and then before the movie he took me up the service hill behind the theater, It was super dark and all that was there was stars, he sat down next to me on a fallen log and gave me my first kiss under the stars. It was romantic and sweet. We saw Castaway, I jumped and hid my face through parts of the movie and he laughed. He had a country laugh, full of sunlight and strong. We had a summer romance, and after school started he just never called. So I told my friends all about him embellishing Grease Style. He was at a reform school so I didn't think I would see him again after he stopped working at the Cracker Barrel.

I was sitting in the cafeteria of my school listening to my friend Scarlett talk when all the sudden she stopped and smiled, it was her ohhh... cute boy smile. I didn't bother turning around, because when boys see Scarlett they don't see me, so I was shocked when someone covered my eyes and said "Guess who?" It was him. My first boyfriend, and my first love! I was shocked. He went to go get food, and Scarlett insisted I tell her who he was. I did, in a hushed tone and he sat with us at lunch. Later, he pulled me aside and asked if I would hook him up with her, so I did. and That's how it became I was his best friend, and hooked him up with all of my friends. Never changed. He still is like that.

That old movie theater is a funeral home now, the hill behind it demolished for construction. I asked him once why he never tried anything, or even tried to get back together with me, (I was drunk at the time, the only reason I asked) He said it was because, I was sweet, and the only best friend he ever had, he didn't want to mess that up or be the one who made me stop believing in Fairy Tales, which probably would have happened, he never could say faithful to one girl.

So now he has a baby on the way and I am engaged, but sometimes I wonder what would have happened, and what ifs, while nice can be dangerous.

Mama Kat and her give aways!!!!

I Totally ADORE this apron go look at the site for even more pretty ones!!!!! Mama Kat is doing one of her famous give aways!!! Go see her and enter!! Good Luck!!

and in other news: Mama Kats Give Away!

Mama Kat is doing a wonderful give away for Feb! It is Apron month! You should go over and check out her amazing site for some laughs and writer's prompts as well as her amazing aprons she will have out this month!

Writer's Workshop!

Thanks to Mama Kat

Now This will offend some people I know but I want to point out that I love my mother and we generally have a pretty good relationship she just bothers me with somethings and this topic seemed to fit today. So here goes:

4.) Write a letter to someone who bothered you this week.

Dear Mama,

Why do you feel the need to involve me in everything? I understand that you love me and that you want my advice but there are so many things that you tell me I don't want to know. Why do you have to hurt Daddy and make our family life so much worse? Why didn't you guys just get divorced when I was four like you have told me every year from that time on that you were? I mean I am glad you didn't because if you had I wouldn't have Jujube and Air force for siblings, but wouldn't the world have been easier if you had? Why do you quit your job every four months and move to another one? I know that it is not just perhaps a midlife crisis because you have done it ever since I was a baby. And you always leave on bad terms, you quit with out notice and make yourself look bad. Why mom why? Then you "clean your law offices" in Atlanta, do you honestly think we don't know you are going to see your boyfriend? You take money to go there and never bring any back, its not right! You tell me all about the things you do with D*ck and then you make me promise to be quiet and not say anything to Daddy even if he asks. D*** is married too, why are you both tearing your families apart when you have told me you really don't love him he's just a good lay? You take the money from Daddy's account that he is using to pay the mortgage and then get mad when he asks you about it, we have moved six times in the past two years because we have lost our houses, why do you do this to our family? And I think what scares me the most is you used to talk about Papa doing this taking you to meet his girlfriends while Grandma stayed home and cried, you are doing the same thing to me. Am I going to turn out like you? I love you mom but I don't want to do the things you do, and it seems to me that they might be inherited. Am I going to wake up 20 years from now and find myself telling my daughter about my boyfried while her father and I fight? I don't want that mom. I have your eyes and your hair and your temper I don't want anything else of yours to.

Always your daughter

~Angel