I haven’t seen him since his daughter was born, She is beautiful. He called me today, as he was pulling down the parking lot to see if I wanted to go out. We went to Waffle House.. Our old hang out and talked.
He told me he is most likely not going to marry his daughter Roura’s mom, that he can’t find someone who thinks he is a good person. This made me a little angry, He is my best friend, I hate when people talk down to him because of his past or how he was raised. And I told him so. He is a good person, and he laughed a little and said that yeah he might be good, but people never seem to consider him “Husband Material” or “good enough” then he asked if I would marry him. It has been a long standing joke in our families that eventually Mark and I would marry. We both laughed it off when we were younger because I knew how he was and he new how I was. But this time I answered yes and thought about it as I did.
Mark is a great father, and he loves that little girl. He also is a decent boyfriend at least until he gets bored or feels trapped, then he has to go out and find someone else, which has always been our compatibility problem. I am an always faithful type of girl, and he’s not.
I joked with him that if Kensei ever dumps me and he still wants a wife I would marry him, and he laughed.
Then when he left after two hours of conversation I started what ifing again and like I have said before they are nice but dangerous.
This is probably my stressing because of my loss of a job and the fact that Kensei is four states away, but sometimes I wonder what would have been ya know?
I still don’t know what is going on in the job world but that is another topic for another time.
my mother is moving out today. this makes me happy. it is not that I don’t love my mom, because I do, it is more that there are times when I just feel like I am her mom and not the other way around.
If anyone needs a little back-story into my mothers and mine relationship I had this letter to her about a year ago.
She has not changed much from that time. She still talks to D*** even sends him nasty text messages… I know because she accidently sends them to me sometimes, and now has a new boyfriend and she is moving herself and my baby sister into his house.
She was angry with me when I met the now boyfriend, she brought him into the apartment and he looked at me and then started going through my movies, and I felt all my anger rise out and “Did you know she is still married” spilled out before I could stop it. His face went kind of red and then he called for mom.
I just want to scream, she is teaching my sister all sorts of horrible things! For years I have been like a mother to Jujube and to my own mom. I paid the bills, when I had the money, and got it if we didn’t. I made the food, and bought the groceries and now I can’t do anything to fix this.
I am glad she is leaving and that makes me sad, this is my mom… I have seen people I read about on their blogs and friends whose relationships with their moms are things that I see in TV shows.. when mine is more out of a lifetime movie.. which I don’t even really like.
She still hasn’t finalized the divorce with my father, but it doesn’t matter to her.
When she ran into the Pastor’s Wife, she was furious because she was all gushing about how she was moving and the new house this and Jeff that and the Pastor’s Wife flat out told her “you are living in sin, I don’t care about what you are so happy about”
I just don’t know what to do and if I say anything to her I might let everything out and then I would never talk to her.. which is sad because she IS my mother…
As of yesterday at 5pm I am no longer employed, The owner of the hotel didn't even wait for the bank to take it he called us and said that he was washing his hands of us.
The unemployment people will be here at 2pm to sign us up... with my luck I will not be eligible.
My manager brought me strawberry sprinkle doughnuts to make me "not cry" he said... and a coke.
He told me to call a previous boss and try to get a job with him and that when and if the hotel opened again he would "steal me right back from him."
Kensei is pissed... the whole reason I am still in SC was this job was the best opportunity for me to get a car before moving to TN, and now I don't have it.
Because of the location of my old bosses hotel I could only work 7-3 because that's when my father is at his job which is 45 min from our house but down the road from that hotel... and I don't think I could get the pay that I would need from him.
So If anyone wants a hotel I know one for sale! and Wish me luck with job hunting and unemployment!
OK I am a downer lately but Today is the day I find out whether I keep my job or not. I just wish my boss would stop joking about us all getting to go home early... It makes me wanna cry!
My mom is insane... she is all "I wanna be independant, but I will make my husband pay all my bills, even though I am taking our 12 year ol daughter to move in with my boyfriend" (that was my mom speaking) I will go into that in a longer post.
I Really want to go home, make a batch of brownie mix and eat it until I feel better, being an adult and able to do that rocks!!
only four more days until my appartment is just mine again, although no roommate yet, I may have to let my brother move in just because I will need some rent help... on the good side he stays in his room and talks to his girlfriend Chickiboo all the time... and yes I actually call her that name in RL.
my boss just brought me a chocolate covered ice cream cone... can you see why i love it here??
