Thursday, May 07, 2009

Writer's Workshop and randomness

Hello all! First things first I just wanted to say I AM Super amazingly ecstatically happy right now. I have been worring about my math grade all semester and I somehow managed to get an A. I don't know if it was because he decided to give everyone an A (Because every person I've asked so far has one) Or maybe I am just smarter than I look, but that is my happy for this week.

Now on to Mama Kat's wonderful writing prompt.

Do I want a baby?

Wow, this question opens up a can o' worms for sure. I would like nothing more than to have a child, in fact when my friends began to have them I considered knocking a few of the off because I would get the kids if something happened. (Just kidding) But I really do want a baby more than almost anything.

This topic is one of the few that Kensei and I actually will full out argue about. Kensei is very planning and doesn't want a kid, or to get married or finish his school until we can "Afford" it. While I am in debt up to my ears with student loans, still accumulating, would get married tomorrow if he asked and want to have babies as soon as possible.

One of the reasons I am so desperate to at least try is because of PCOS, I was diagnosed with it when I was sixteen. My OBGYN at the time informed me that there was nothing they could do, and that I basicly had until I was 25 to have my kids or it would be almost impossible. For a sixteen year old who always wanted to be a mom that was pretty much the worst thing they could have told me. Since then I have learned that there was a medication they could have put me on that would have slowed the progression down a little, and I am now on it, but I have a very loud biological clock ticking.

I hope to soon have at least the beginning of a family and am also completly for adoption, but that is where Kensei's we need the money first outlook will really come in.

This post is going to be shorter than normal just because I am beginng to make myself sad.


April said...

My mom always says if someone waits until they can afford a baby, they will never have one. Good luck hun.

Summer said...

You are welcome to have my kids for a week to fix that fix. =)

By the way, thanks for the vote! You're my new best friend now!

monica said...

Well, I hope you can have a child soon. You must make your dreams come true. Beautiful writing! Stopping in from MamaKat's.

Kitty said...

Thanks for the comment on my blog! I actually was diagnosed with PCOS when I was 17 and am now 27... time flies. I hope someday to adopt a baby, but first I need to find a baby daddy!

Night Owl Mama said...

HUGS I was were you are many years ago. Today I'm closing in on 40 with 4 kids. 1 is adopted. My now husband made me wait 10 yrs before he'd marry me and we moved into together the yr we got married. He wanted to be debt free, own a home, and have a great job making over $55,000 a yr. Let me tell u so many times I thought Geez I can hear my clock ticking.
WHen things fall into place for u you'll know your both ready and secure. good luck to you. HUGS enjoy your lives together before adding kids to the mix they add a whole new world of problems.

Life with Kaishon said...

Oh no! Well at least you have a few more years until you are 25! I am SO old. 32. I have NO idea what Gary is waiting for... well, he does want to pay off the mortgage 28 more years to wait! Can you even imagine! I just prayed and asked God to please grant you this dream : )

Lisa said...

Great job on your A...that is terrific. Also if you wait to get out of debt to do something you will never do anything...does that make sense?

Amy said...

I hope it happens for you soon! My husband was the same way and then he changed his mind. We were married two years before we graduated college and I was pregnant when we graduated. IT all works out in the end. WE were not rich and had major student loans and it all worked out. My Mom always says that you always find a way to pay for your kids. You are always provided for.

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