Depressed Yet Again…

So I just realised that the Garage has had my car more from the time I bought it than I have….  that’s kinda depressing…

I had to send it back to them today... if you want to see what I saw take a look here:

So I am not sure what is going on with me other than the fact I am depressed right now, I mean I am doing okay I guess, just my car keeps breaking, I burnt my arm pretty bad last night making dinner, that photo will be up tomorrow too… I think after work I just need to hitch a ride home and sleep ya know?

 

 

Southern Belle’s

I have been thinking today that even though I was born in the north, (and lived there for a while) I might have been born a belle, because as we all know Southern Belles are born not Made.

So I pulled up some of the golden rules of being a Belle and compared myself to them.

First:

A Southern Belle’s Ten Golden Rules

1) Never serve pink lemonade at your Junior League committee meetings. It has communist undertones.

2) Always wear white when you walk down the aisle (even if it’s for the third time).

3) Never wear white shoes before Easter or after Labor Day. The only exception, of course, is if you’re a bride. Bridesmaids, however, must never wear white shoes. Bridesmaids’ shoes should match the punch.

4) It doesn’t matter if you marry a man who doesn’t know the difference between a shrimp fork and a pickle fork. You can always teach him. Just make sure he can afford to buy you both.

5) Never date your sorority sister’s ex-husband until at least three years after the divorce. You might need her to write your daughter a Kappa Kappa Gamma recommendation one day. Just remember it’s a lot easier to find a new man than it is to get your daughter into Kappa.

6) Never marry a man whose mother and grandmother owned silver plate instead of real silver. He’s not used to quality and he’ll try to cheat you on the divorce settlement.

7) It’s never to soon to write a thank-you note. Some belles take the notes and a pen with them to party. In the middle of the evening they go into the ladies’ room and write a thank-you describing how much they enjoyed the dinner (naming specific items). They then put the note in the mailbox as they leave. The hostess receives it first thing in the morning. Sure this is compulsive, but you’re going to have to be compulsive if you want to be president of the Junior League.

8 ) Never show your bosom before evening and never wear and ankle bracelet before anything. Girls who wear ankle bracelets usually end up twirling batons. There has never been a baton twirler who became Miss America and there’s certainly never been a baton twirler in the Junior League.

9) Never chew gum in public and never smoke on the street.

10) Buy low. Sell high.

~ from A Southern Belle Primer

I Think some of these go with me even though I’ve never been in a sorority. (I want to though!) What do you think, are any of you guys Belles?

My Happy List

So I have never done one of these before! If you wanna see how a professional does it click here~~

I am happy because I got something super special in the mail last night.

I am happy because I am doing a guest post on my “Big Sisters” blog.

I am thrilled that I got all my shopping done for my Valentines and Pinktastic swap!! I am so looking forward to them!

I am happy that I have discovered so many great new blogs to read and people to know!

Swap Post

Okay so  I promise a little more backstory on Kensei and myself tomorrow. but I  did want to get this post out there now that they have the linky up.

I participated in the winter wishes secret Santa swap and here’s what I got! These were so good, and there were 2 apple cider packs inside too!!

I love my new snowman cup! It’s so cute! I’ve been using it from the first time I opened the package!

Milk Chocolate, Carmel Cream and French Vanilla hot coco! Super yummy goodness!

30 day challenge

I am not going to do these in constitutive days but I do think that the challenge is worth touching on. So here we go…

My current relationship….

Well might as well start at the beginning, Kensei and I met by accident, he was actually dating my friend, Meg and I had known each other from middle school, and she introduced me and Kensei, we talked a lot online, and he was in TN with his family. 

They had an odd relationship. broke up once a week, and then back together by the next day. I usually talked to both of them at least once a day.  I became good friends with Kensei. So when they had their official final breakup I was sad. I had developed a crush on him and would never have asked him out because well ya just don’t do that. 

Meg actually hooked us up and well I liked him so I went with it.. Yes Kensei is an internet boyfriend but I do love him. I have been with him for several years now… almost 10 and well I am not a little girl anymore ya know?

We do have our ups and downs, I have called friends up in tears because we got into fights and I have called them up over joyed because of good news, but I do know I love him and as soon as I can complete the move I will be up there in TN with him.

 

Revolution

I seem to be in a revolutionary mood lately! I joined in the Bloggy revolution for no replies and now I want to show you guys this…

click on the button and join in... go on I'll wait..... back?

okay so I think that this is a good thing. There are a lot of people who try to compete with other bloggers or say things that would hurt people, so I am going to try my best  not to be one of them.

If you want to go sign up for the pledge as well.

A Couple of Things..

First: I GOT A CAR!!!!!! This is my new (kinda) baby, Her name is Sophie, and I already love her lots.

 

Second I Love Love Love getting your comments, Your thoughts on what I write, reactions, responses, how you feel, it makes me happy inside and I try to respond to every single one I get.. but there is an issue… no reply blogger is filling up my comments, and they are great ones! I want to write you back and tell you how you made me feel, whether it was touching my heart on a hard post or making me laugh on a funny one and I can’t. so do me a favor? Please Please Please

1. go to the Blogger Dashboard
2. click edit profile
3. look in the privacy section.
4. Click the box that says show my email address
5. In the identity section enter your email address
6. Scroll down and click Save Profile

That way maybe I can make you feel better or smile too?

 

And now my List… you what list I mean, the Lists of 5 celebs (or characters in my case) you have a free pass to sleep with if, by some incredible twist of fate, you would actually have a run-in with the famous object of your affection. And that they’d be looking and wanting one with you too lol.

Kensei says my list is WAY longer that 5, because every time I comment that an actor in a movie is cute he says great add that one to the list

Spike Because well Vampire’s don’t Sparkle! I have a thing for the bad boys and Spike is definitely a bad boy. When he first came on I was totally NOT into him but now I adore him, and that accent?? I totally melt.

Harrison Ford… Han Solo and Indiana Jones, What more can a girl want?  I fell in love with Han Solo at a young age, and Harrison Ford can still make my heart melt, so he is definitely one!

Nicholas Cage- again bad boy and he just does something more me, although I will admit I like his shaggy scruffy look best.

Mark Valley- or Christopher Chance from Human Target. He is smart and sexy and the push you down on the floor and have his way kinda guy, but also a gentleman… I would let him protect me any day of the week.

Brad Pitt from Oceans or Mr and Mrs Smith,  I like the devil may car attitude and that whole I’ll do anything streak…  and even though that’s five I gotta toss one more in…

George Clooney… no words… just yummy…

Dialect Vlog

Okay So I have NEVER done a vlog before, so here I go I guess, this is the dialect vlog, I was born in Ohio, Live in New York and moved down to SC plus spent some time in TN so my accent is kind of picked up from all over I guess… I know that M and my other friends are constantly picking on me for saying things certain ways,

I am sorry for the bad quality… and I said um a lot lol but for my first vlog it wasn’t to bad I guess…. here are the words and questions if you want to try it…

 

To participate, all you have to do is make a video of yourself saying the following words:

Aunt, Route, Wash, Oil, Theater, Iron, Salmon, Caramel, Fire, Water, Sure, Data, Ruin, Crayon, Toilet, New Orleans, Pecan, Both, Again, Probably, Spitting image, Alabama, Lawyer, Coupon, Mayonnaise, Syrup, Pajamas, Caught

And then answering these questions:

• • What is it called when you throw toilet paper on a house?  
  • What is the bug that when you touch it, it curls into a ball?
  • What is the bubbly carbonated drink called?
  • What do you call gym shoes?
  • What do you say to address a group of people?
  • What do you call the kind of spider that has an oval-shaped body and extremely long legs?
  • What do you call your grandparents?
  • What do you call the wheeled contraption in which you carry groceries at the supermarket?
  • What do you call it when rain falls while the sun is shining?
  • What is the thing you change the TV channel with?

 

These ladies have all done it as well!! Let me know If you do I want to hear you talk as well!!

     

I love mail!!

So in case you haven’t guessed I love getting things in the actual mail, I mean email is great and comments are better lol but I love to open my mailbox and see my name so when I saw Livkit had a pen pal program going I signed up right away! You all should too! Who doesn’t love mail, and making friends along the way??

It’s Snowing!!!

I may have mentioned this before but I LOVE LOVE LOVE Snow!! So when I woke up at 4 am this morning to snow I was estatic, espicially because the last time it snowed I was at work and couldn’t play in it. So here are a few pictures and Videos of my fun today!

Penni all tuckered out after playing in the snow with me.  and this is why lol:








See how much fun? lol

Pinktastic Swap!!

So Mamarazzi Is hosting her pinktastic swap! I am so excited to join in! I can’t wait it will be so much fun! I am so looking forward to this because well my favorite color is pink, So I can pick all sorts of Pink things I love to send out! It will be great!

Blue Skies

So I went and looked at another car, Airforce and my dad are going to help me get it, just waiting until Tuesday to know for sure so please keep your fingers crossed for me!

I am hoping that tomorrow on my photo blog I’ll have pictures of snow, we are supposed to get some!

once I got over my depression I had a decent weekend, works some odd hours though lol, I bought my first MAC cosmetics I am in love! I got a Super glass I love it.

Have a good Sunday you guys!

Still a little upset but I do have good news

So I wanted to thank the people that left comments on my last post, I really needed to get out the emotions that I was feeling but I was honestly very worried about posting it on my blog because I still have this feeling in the back of my head that I am not being a good person because of my reaction to the situation and how I felt and still feel about it.

I did get some good news Airforce got his school money and after he buys himself a car if he has any left over he will let me borrow  and pay him back so I will be saving extra hard for that as well.

I needed a pick my up today so I went to one of my favorite places and took a picture for my 365, if your interested stop on over there and take a look.

 

 

and then to make myself feel  better I signed up for a Valentines Swap so hopefully I will get in!!!

I will keep you all updated and again I wanted to thank those who left positive reactions and made me feel a little better on that last post.

Trying Not To Cry

Quick Warning…. This post is to get my emotions out there, If you want to be mean DO NOT COMMENT.. also I do use bad words… something I do not usually do so if that offends you don’t read please.

 

So the day started out great.  I wen tout last night with M, we had dinner and then went to karaoke, I had so much fun, didn’t sleep all night.

Then M came to my work this morning to keep me company and herself awake and things were going great until my phone rang.

It was my mother…. now I love my mom… I honestly, truly, really do LOVE her… I just don’t really LIKE her…  Our relationship has never been very good. But things had been better since she moved in with her new boyfriend… kinda.

My mother lies a lot… I mean a whole lot, she also “Borrows” money from people’s wallets and other things, which is why when she told me that the money my Papa  had left me when he passed was almost gone because my Uncle, (Who had just died) spent it I was skeptical to say the least, apparently out of the 5 thousand I had been left only 1,500 was there. but I was okay with that I can get a decent car for that price… in fact I’ve found one that looks great for 1300…

So I was all set to go talk to this guy about that car today when my mom called me at work.. she told me that she needed the money for hospital bills, because she has tumors in her uterus and they might be cancerous and if they aren’t removed then she’ll die. Now my mom is a very dramatic person, so I only believe half of what she says usually, but my papa died from brain tumors, and my grandmother (her mom) died of cancer so it is plausible.. and what kind of person, and daughter would I be if I didn’t let her use the money? She could be telling the truth for once… but what if she’s not? What if she just wants the money again like usual? She has taken so much money from me over the years whether by asking or “borrowing” that I just don’t know.

I am letting her have the money of course, but I feel betrayed and hurt and I shouldn’t feel this way… I should be worried about my mom and I honestly can’t even work up the worry right now… because I don’t know if it’s true…

God I sound like a selfish bitch… 

anyways I apologize for the rant, and selfishness and bitchyness of this post… I will try to be back to my upbeat self tomorrow.

Life or something Like it.

I had a really bad day yesterday, for a lot of reasons. There are so many things that I want to have happen but just seem to things to fall right.

I almost got a nice little car the other day, but because I had to  wait until the banks opened to get all the cash I didn’t get it. and all the others I have been able to afford aren’t even really worth looking at! I have no idea what I am going to do… I need a car and I need it soon, but things just don’t seem to be working well.

I am also having a lot of problems getting back into school, I graduated with my Assoc, this past spring and haven’t been able to get back into classes since…  I can’t really go to University of Memphis until I get a car and move, so I just don’t know what to do..

Anyways I posted again on my photo blog so if you get bored go take a look!